'How God Delivered Me From The Depths Of Depression'

How God Delivered Me From The Depths Of Depression

"I would testify!" Those were the exact words i wrote on a small piece of paper and pinned unto my wardrobe sometime in 2002, while I was yet suffering severe depression.

Here I am today, 19 years later doing exactly that, however at the time I wrote down those three words, it seemed really improbable and only but a distant dream to me, as everything seemed so gloomy, i just couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel.

What really inspired such audacity in the midst of my adversity, that would make me put down those words is what I haven't been able to figure out up til now.

Perhaps it wasn't just me but God using me to prophesy concerning things to come and what He would use me to do much later, because if anyone had told me that today God would be using me to deliver many from the same condition I suffered, I would have seriously doubted that possibility.

It wasn't funny at all. To make it through a day required a whole lot, I wondered if I would make it to the next. And it wasn't because of suicidal thoughts, as that never crossed my mind, but the pain and misery alone seemed just too much for me to bear, i feared if it was going to end my life.

Even to get down from my bed which was supposed to be just about the simplest of tasks was such a big ask, as I also found myself seriously struggling with that.

And it wasn't that i was physically sick, but it was emotionally that I was having serious issues and really struggling, for I had virtually lost all my spirits, hence it seemed my depressed mode had become fully activated.

This mood also reflected in my body posture as well, as my head had now assumed the depressed position as its new normal, especially when I was having a conversation with people, which was really embarrassing to say the least, but there was not much I could do about it, because regardless of how much I tried to motivate myself to get my head up, it didn't last for long, as that seemed to be its unnatural position.

It also seemed to affect my heart as i could clearly feel it pounding fiercely and painfully, which seemed quite abnormal to me at the time, but in sync with the pain I was feeling as a result of the depression.

It was that bad that i had resolved to take some medically suggested dietary supplements to boost my morale and energy levels because i felt very weak and spiritless. However I later had a change of heart and made up my mind that I was going to rely on God's help alone, so if God wasn't going to help me Himself, I wouldn't seek help elsewhere.

It seemed a difficult and risky decision to make, but God did come to my rescue not long after that, which suggested that I had made the right decision, as it was for good.

Now, this life-changing encounter took place when I was in the bathroom taking my bath. It came via a song through which God revealed to me that It's all about Him, and that was it! My depression was completely gone, as the burden i felt for about five to six months that weighed me down, got totally lifted.

And it wasn't that all the problems that I had at the time had disappeared all of a sudden as a result, because they were still very much there. But that revelation that "it was all about God", meant the problems no longer had the power to get me depressed.

Because even though I was a very strong Christian at the time who willing to die for Christ's sake, the truth was that, it wasn't all about God, because it was still to some extent about me. Hence why the problems I had at the time, were able to get me depressed, as I was very concerned about people's opinions and what they would make of it.

So it wasn't necessarily the problems I had, but what I made of it and people's opinions concerning it that got me depressed, hence once i received that revelation from God that "it's all about Him", that was all it required to take the life of my depression away, since it was no longer about me or what people thought about me, but it was now "ALL ABOUT GOD"!

This is 19 years later and still counting, and I have never had any point since then where I found it a little bit hard to come down from my bed, not even once. And it's not because I have not been through difficulties or trying times afterwards, because I've definitely been through much much worse, but that revelation that "it was all about God" appears to have given me such a rock solid foundation, that I am able to withstand and overcome any such difficulty I faced. Matthew 7:24-25

That revelation God gave to me turned out to be the game changer for me, and yet stands as the best thing that ever happened to me, because it completely transformed my orientation, and paved way for me to begin walk at the next level with God, which is the level of the Spirit, where it is all about God!

I spoke of the fasting in the wilderness being one of the greatest things that happened to me in a recent thread I shared. If anythings else trumps that, it's this encounter with God in the bathroom where I received this revelation that "it's all about God", because it's this revelation that inspired the orientation behind the magnitude of my desire to begin to live the kind of life the apostles and prophets lived in the bible days, where it was all about God, which actually led me to embark on that fast.

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I cannot thank God enough for that amazing revelation that had not only brought me out from the deepest pit of depression, but has also lifted me up and placed my feet upon the solid Rock upon which I now stand.

God bless.

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